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I went to my best friend's baby shower today. I sat next to her and collected all the trash, and remembered all the names and played the part while thinking "this sucks". I won a Starbucks gift card and smiled and all the while thought about how I am the only woman here who is not either pregnant or given birth and felt sad. Then I came home and poured myself some wine and felt sad and thought about how everyone was having babies, but not me. Boo hoo.
Then I was like "my best friend is having a baby".... Oh my God! I went through the roof with joy! I thought about every moment my friend would have with this baby/child and felt so much gratittude that I actually started to cry. Happy tears. And then I thought about all the moments that I would have with this baby/child and cried even more. My best friend is having a baby! Hallelujah!
And somewhere I realized that just because it wasnt my baby....did not mean that I couldnt love it and be the best auntie in the world! And that didnt mean because I wasnt a "mommy" per se, didnt mean that I didnt have something, some little bundle of joy, to give love to. It was just going to be different, and that is really okay. My best friend is having a baby. And I could not be more excited.
Cari--I totally can relate to how you feel on the babyless and manless level...but your absolutely right in saying that is going to be your baby too! It takes a VILLAGE to raise a child... that baby is going to need as much love as it can possibly get!!! We get to be Aunties!!! It is the most awesome and rewarding gift I can even think of:) I get sooo much fulfillment seeing my siblings become parents and I love how I get to jump in to the fun:) You know maybe we are suppose to love other peoples children and be a strength to their parents!!! And we get the freedom to make exotic food and craft to our hearts content:) YAY! We are BLESSED:)
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